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When someone else’s art is so good you physically can’t look at it because of artistic jealousy
#Y’all do this to me on a daily basis I swear#I literally can’t follow some people because their stuff is so good it breaks my heart#I think the art world has a lot of envy and competitiveness that no one really talks about#Sure we’re all for self expression but so many of us are so used to being “the art kid” that anyone else taking or sharing that spot feels#like losing a peice of your identity.#I’ve had some artist friends who dealt with their jealousy by tearing others down or justifying their art by going#”Well you’re bad at ____ but I’m better at ____”#Or they would give unsolicited critique that was more like gently worded criticism than friendly advice to help someone reach their goals#And because of those experiences… I never want to become that person#I definitely get the surges of jealousy… But I very much try to remind myself that fellow artists are my friends-not my rivals#The people I feel the most envy for are often the people I hype up the most#And beyond that- nobody in the art community is trying to gatekeep information from you.#If you want to learn skills from other people- don’t hesitate to ask them. Most artists happily spill their brains for you in a conversatio#(Foolish artist… they don’t even know how many brain juices of theirs I’m absorbing-MWAHAHAHA)#(I’m gonna come come back stronger as an artist… And then I can learn and grow EVEN MORE BWAHAHAHA)#So anyway… Jealousy is a valid and very real thing… but what you choose to do about it can either hinder or help you.#That’s all folks#art meme#art
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procrastination is starting to have its consequences finally
#on my friends living room floor they love together but one of them has been london for weeks or maybe months#to be with her love. im on a foam mattress from one of their beds next to a glass bottle of water opened by one of them#in a mug given to me by another. the weather felt like my childhood today and it also felt like 2 years ago.#(put space in the heavens Einstein's idea and hes your friend too so nothing to fear) around the table they drank and laughed and i thought#i hope you keep growing so full with the love you receive . i hope your appetite becomes insatiable from how used to it you are#and i know youre all leaving soon but i hope one day you miss this and that youll be happy you miss it#its worth missing i think#i thought he didnt care but he said after exams hes going walk around this area over and over#(this is near where he lived and where we visited almost daily for a year)#(hed come across the bridge on a lake)#we went where she used to live and at the entrance a fox sat calmly. it just yawned and stared.#it felt important somehow. i think maybe their impressions of me will never be close to how i feel inside but i think#i love them enough for that not to matter. i dont think theyll ever know this. i dont think if they did it would change much.#and seeing them smile makes my heart glow anyway. today i tried their malaysian tea the ginger burned my throat#they warmed my heart. hes going to canada soon and hes going to the US soon and shes going everywhere soon ill never understand#how were supposed to live with memories and with seperation and with the past but we do it anyway so i think it doesnt matter much#i wanted to write a poem for the lab rats with the fibre optic wires lit with blue forcing them to turn around and around#something about how im sorry that the two photon arrays burned the inside of your brain. im sorry about the sharp points of multielectrode#arrayes. im sorry about everything we do to you. she asked to see me tomorrow. im trying to have self control but i miss her so awfully#last night my friend talked to me and i updated on everything that happened with love and the lack of it and she just started laughing#and she told me about the same thing from her side. and she told me about how she loved london because she would walk the streets#and she felt like the people were her. and her eyes would go over the people and the bag of bagels and the construction men they probably#have a kid at home maybe shes a daughter. this kid is crying for her mother and the building you just walked past caused#blisters and pain and people died in it and very likely people were born in it. we talked for hours and i felt like#i was holding her hand just like that time she held mine watching a horror film. i love her so much#my friend is a genius and i remember her picking up the charms of my phone and staring at the leaf hanging from them. shes side stepping to#music drinking dangerous cider and cocktails from a movie and chit chatting with billionaires and undergrads#i love her dearly. his head covered in electrodes. she tells me about a syrian guy shes in love with and she says#what you feel and what i feel is like cocaine. ive tried a lot of fucking cocaine.#she says ive reminded her of what living actually feels like and to never put energy into someone who doesnt see me this way.
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After watching s2 of Link Click, I’m rewatching s1, and when Cheng Xiaoshi dove for the Emma murder, he comes back after diving by himself, and Lu Guang yells at him about how he could’ve died, and while it’s not exactly an unjustified reaction, it makes so much more sense now
All I keep thinking is how, after LG went to the trouble of messing with the timeline himself, he’s like “why are you trying so hard to undo all the work I did to keep you alive”
#i have so many thoughts about this show and no brain cells to articulate them with#but man LG’s reactions to some things make a LOT more sense now#I’m sure I’ll watch it over again#but there are a lot of little things I’m picking up on#also how could anyone EVER say that LG isn’t emotional or driven by emotion#were we watching the same show#link click#link click spoilers#lu guang#cheng xiaoshi#shiguang daili ren#shiguang daili ren spoilers
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I have developed a new litmus test for Media Literacy and People I Wanna Hang With
Do they hate Skylar White of Breaking Bad for being dramatic and unreasonable
Do they think Arlecchino from Genshin Impact is an abusive parent
Do they think Silco from Arcane made Zaun worse
Answering yes to any of these questions results in immediate disqualification for having respectable opinions. To me.
#daily life with mercy#I have arguments for all three of them adslfj#and I feel strongly enough about all three#and generally speaking!#disagreeing on these very sensitive topics IS a good indicator of whether we can have constructive conversation#Note the wording#It's not about “do you think Skylar is annoying”#...answering yes to that still puts you on my squinty eye list but it's more forgivable#you can think someone is annoying while still acknowledging they are in a lot of pain#“Abusive” is a very particular term highlighting a pattern of behavior#You do better for those kids than Arlecchino did while challenging the system you grew up in lmao#we can have a civil discussion about good vs bad parenting#but that's not abuse. That's a bad situation#and thinking Silco made Zaun worse is just. Not having eyes. Or a functioning brain#sorry man. It was an EVEN WORSE shitshow before he showed up and took over#we can have a civil discussion over whether his end justified his means but you can't deny that he improved the gang wars and pollution#as evident by: EVERYTHING GETTING WORSE WITH HIS DEATH
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Day 4: old juvar doodles
#sorry for all of the old art I’ve been staring at a wall daydreaming about aus#I swear im going to draw new art tomorrow. trust.#expect a lot of juvar on this page too i love them a lot#and a lot of aus im au brained rn#jude mathis#tales of xillia ivar#juvar#jude mathis daily
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So you're telling me you finally get to live your best y/n life with the idol who saved your life not once bUT T W I C E and you ghost the man to go die????
And then for it go in vain since he showed up anywAYS ?????? AND DIED YET AGAIN FOR YOU?!
AND THEN YOU GO BACK AND NEVER MEET HIM AFTER ALL THAT ????
Lee Shieun we got BEEF
#dumb fuck ted talk#bitch had you just gotten your pea brained ass on that dumb ass train#how does it feel to be this fucking stupid#the cute moments in this bitchass drama are so cute but so many of the bad things could have avoided#lee shieun you beautiful dumb bitch#if i see you it's on sight#we gotta fight in an ihop parking lot. i don't make the rules#decisions decisions all them BULLSHIT#all this unnecessary drama and fOR WhaT#lovely runner#kdrama problems#rain's daily issue
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Permanently tormented by my desire to share the plot and development and arcs that my oc stories involve except that that would take an insane amount of work and skill that I don’t have. Laying down and dying…………. can u guys look into my brain and see it instead
#I been trying writing again#FOR THE LOVE OF GOD!!!#not to mention the src as it stands as a narrative is already kind of fundamentally flawed#because in a lot of ways it’s just a patchwork of like 3 other ocs stories#it’s not good webcomic material! wasn’t really meant to be one#and yet#I really really really really want to tell the story of how ripley and Jeremy became friends!!#I love them so MUCH!!!#U GUYS NEED TO SEE THE SHIT IN MY BRAIN!! CRAZY IN HERE#anyway#I dont know Im just pondering the horror of it all#dropping off my daily ripley drawing#my art#src
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i like overthink everything now it makes me feel so dumb. i used 2 be able to just talk 2 ppl but nowadays every single thing im like Is that actually going to make them hate me. Yes probably. and then i just dont respond which makes ppl hate me. this is how it is
#ive been overthinking 1 light and casual mildly funny response to something but im worried itll come off as disrespectful and dismissive And#make me seem stupid and uncaring all at the same time. and also be seen as insulting. but like idt itd be insulting right like. im not#saying what it is so ig for all you guys know im like I mean if i say All your shit suck ball and i hateit kys. <- thats not the thing i was#going to say#like it doesnt matter now the window for response is closed now but i feel stupid bc i shouldve just said it it was light and casual. im so#bad at keeping convos gojng im convinced im not going to survive. In like a light and casual way like in a He will not make it through the#winter joke way. dw. im not going to do anything bc i had One failed interaction. if i was going to do anythjng itd be bc of the 8000000#other failed interactions. But im not. anyways. it just makes me feel so useless 😭 like i want to respond i want to talk to ppl so bad but#i feel like i mess things up Irreparably every time i speak OR i take too LONG overthinking my response and then i just cant respond bc its#been too long and then its been 3 years and the only messages ive ever sent r my intro message and 1 message 2 years ago that nobody#responded to at all. or the conversation stopped immediately after. and like i used to be better at this i was lkke. talkative in a couple#muts servers like. i talked 2 ppl daily in those servers and i had fun and like. I was an important part of the group and i felt like it#but i just feel like such an outsider for Everything and its literally my fault bc i cant just like. Talk. The explosion. bc im always like#im gonna try im gonna do it this time im gonna get it back im going to finally be Good connor and im going to fix it all and make a Good#solid friend group and ill find HEALTHY LOVE and i wont selfsabotage and ill move out and have a job and ill balance it well and ill start#all my hobbies and ill have a great routine and be so loveable and on top of it and not stressed and content and happy and roll with the#punches and then theres a single hiccup and im like Well fuckinf whatever im going to be an unemployed hermit forever and im going to die b4#im 25 anyways so Who cares and also im digging a little hole for myself. and its like. AUGHH ik i just have to persevere and overcome but#even saying that feels so stupid its not fucking hard its Talking to ppl. like. i literally if ive ever said a word to you i had to think#avt it and strategize how to respond right even for like. like. it makes it sound like its not genuine it is#like for example i want to say hey i love your art! but then i freak out and im like thats not normal thats like a rly generic comment they#hear that all the time theyll thjnk im being polite and my brains like hrmmm rewrite Your art changed my life. It shaped me. Ill never be#the same. Nad im like ok too far overcorrected go back and the sentence generator is like Your art has colors 💯 like. GOD. WHY IS IT SO#difficult. and then usually i either just dont say anythinf and feel awful abt it 4ever OR i send it on anon and then i spend like 15#minutes ibsessively slightly tweaking the apelling and capitalization and punctuation to make sure it doesnt seem like its me just in case#it Is the worst possible thing to say but then i see the response and itll be like AWWW TYSM :] THIS MEANS A LOT or whathaveyou and i feel#stupid bc i couldve just Told them this to their face and it wouldve been a good positive interaction we had. but instead i had 2 hide and#tyoe entirely differently so they couldnt sniff me from my typing style. and it soesnt even feel like the thanks is actually 4 me bc i#tweaked the message sm. and it still makes me happy that the oersons hapoy but its like. that couldve been a nice mutual interaction#like not that i need a personal ty i compliment ppl when i Want to compliment ppl and when its genuine yk. i dont do it so i get mutualpoint
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happy tuesday friendz & gooood morning ! i was up all night plucking little stars from the night sky to place on everyone’s head for good luck today ✩ — ٩(ˊᗜˋ*)و ! i hope today is magical is for you all <3
#that is my fancy way of saying i love u & i didn’t sleep LMAO#okay well i did but i woke up in the middle of the night bc my dreams like to taunt me sometimes#but we move !!#the kitties were all snuggled up hehe#my little sweethearts#they’re rascals tho bc they play a little game of trying to see who can get the closest to me & cuddle (obi instigates)#they both like to sleep on my chest and have their face right in front of mine#but also don’t *love* to share . .#so it’s a constant back and forth of them trying to move closer to me#in other news :#wrote 1.5k yesterday and feeling proud :’)#me + nina 🤝 forcing each other to write#it’s the editing that always gets me tho LMAO#i just turn a wee bit obsessive#A WEE !#hehe#okay im procrastinating i need to go to work#aka the land of no / very limited service#wishing you all a wonderful day !!!#also fair warning : i have a lot of stuff queued today . sorry in advance !#the tags reflect my sleep deprived brain so if they are unhinged well…. yes#₊˚⊹ ᰔ xoxo aims#🗣️ the daily yap .
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Greetings, human! ♥ (Patreon)
#My art#SCII#ZEX#The Captain#A warmup that I took a little longer with - pacing myself?? Could be#I wanted to work on the daily more at the time but ah I had a good fun with this one ♪#Even if it was one I failed to record hhhhuah#Oh well - next time lol#Mostly inspired by accidentally starting a new fic with these two heck#Yeah on top of the recent DAX ideas coming in my brain decided to prank me with Yet More inspiration lol#I'm happy about it! I do enjoy writing :)#But it's also Extremely self-indulgent so fjdslkafjd while I'm having fun it's also like Oh No I'm Having Too Much Fun With This lol#Not such a bad thing every once in a while ♪#They're just so cute hehe#Been having a lot of fun with this sizing of chibis lately - small sketches then upsized to ~about where I'd want them on-screen#Maybe a bit small still but that's not that strange lol#I really want to hit whichever library near here has a Cricut I must learn how these machines function and how much they charge#I mean if I can just make bookmarks at home what might the library be able to offer me hehehe ♪#Anyway
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#kirby#daily kirby#my art#digital#hal laboratory#nintendo#you're taking him with you right#(our other partner will be here tomorrow!)#(then after this weekend the next time I see them they'll be driving me home at the end of next month.)#(I'm kinda tired today which makes me Nervous but. I got a lot of brain-work done this week)#(so that if worst comes to worst my partners can pack most of my stuff for me.)#(and it probably will not come to that. even abled folks have low days.)#(but the prednisone is not a permanent solution and I don't actually know for sure how long it will even work.)#(so. being tired makes me Nervous. but it'll be fine.)#(like to clarify it is a lot closer to Regular Tired than the completely debilitating fatigue I was struggling through last weekend)#(but it still makes me worry a little -n- )
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Ayumi and Yoshiki would be roughly 33/34 years old respectively today in 2024 and therefore by a couple years older than me, yet I'd still call them my children and would give them cookies and tea and a warm blanket to alleviate their cursed ghost-driven timeline they are in.
#corpse party#dia talks#am i talking about them again after seeing corpse party 2 and its teasers? and also because I missed out doodling Yoshiki on his bday?#why yes i am. I still wanna doodle something for him these days#Anyway I have this whole post-canon story in my head where they own a cat and go mystery hunting for ghosts and yokai#they're married and better in their 30s but they still have nightmares about the things they have experiences#there's other things like how Ayumi's mobility depends on the strength of the Nirvana and how strenuous that power is on a daily basis#and Yoshiki basically having a lot of scars around his arms due to using his blood at times as a catalyst for his solo ghost hunting#anyway this shit has been in my brain for almost 10 years now. Seprember marks my 10 year anniversary since shipping them#10 years of Ayushiki Queening and all I got was me groaning at Kedwin every time he reblogs my art and never updates Dead Patient
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thinking really hard about logging into my old tumblr acc after being gone for like a year and a half cause i stumbled upon a post that led me to my old mutuals and i teared up a lil </3 but also i feel so ashamed i left without saying a word to anyone aaaa
#like i genuinely feel so bad for simply disappearing from people's lives :c#i used to talk to some of them daily and like even had plans to see one of them on holiday to another country?? like that level of close#and then well my mental health went to shit i took a semester off uni and disappeared from my irl friends' lives too for a good 6 months#some of my mutuals had my ig and we followed each other but i also haven't really been there much since dissappearing last year so#but i just snooped into some of their accounts and seeeing what they're up to made me want to talk to them sooo bad#everyone was so cool and kind and i miss them so much it's just i feel so guilty and also don't even know if i'm able to mantain constant#contact and conversations with people now. like it's been even hard for me to stay in touch with my irl friends aaa#why must my brain hate me so much and not let me socialize !! i used to be such an extroverted person what the fuck happened!!#i know some of them messaged me worried and i felt so guilty for not responding but i saw those dms when i was very much deppressed#so i never answered and now i feel like it's too late GOD!!#anyways at least it was nice snooping and seeing how they're doing i genuinely wish them only good things they're fucking great#maybe i just need to suck it up and just go back and talk to people again but i get so overwhelmed just thinking about it!!#okay it's like 4 am i'm posting this and maybe deleting it in the morning sorry for the rant i just am feeling a lot !!
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(cw vent, sorry it's just been A Couple Of Days)
Not really having many irl friends comes at the price of feeling so terribly lonely, I feel like I have no one to talk to because I'm not close to enough people, or maybe I am and I just haven't talked to them in a while and I don't want this to be our first conversation qwq
I'm honestly just. Tired, tbh qwq
#I mostly talk to my partner#But they've been more absent lately and like they have their own life#But the second they're gone I realize I don't talk to anyone that much#I used to have someone else I spoke to daily; it was an awful friendship though and it took a lot of struggle to end it#But god; just qwq; I'm so tired of everything qwq#Honestly I'm disappointed in how upset it makes me that my partner is more absent because I know it's bc they've found a game they're into#And have been playing non-stop#They'll come telling me that they've done this and that and I'll be struggling HARD and will try to mention it at some point but#But like I wanna leave them their space to be excited but I just#Look. Look the NPD is getting to me; and I know these are not kind or fair feelings but#But I hate it here; I don't care about their game; I don't care about what they've done;#All my brain focuses on is that I've had a shitty fucking day and everything's gone wrong and they weren't here#Because they were fucking playing#And I know that's not fair for MANY reasons and that voicing all that would make me a massive asshole#And that at its core; it's more of a matter of never going anywhere; not having people to hang out with;#Not leaving my house nor talking to that many people#I feel so lonely and so fucking hollow qwq#My bag got taken away and I feel like I've lost an intrinsic part of myself#And to top it all off; I had today's exam and the project I'm doing#And my dad screaming and my period coming and all the things I have to do and how much I yearn for friends#Yet when I'm with my friends I can't wait to be alone#Man; just#I didn't wanna go this far; and I only say it here because no one's really gonna read it;#But I genuinely just wanna kill myself at this point#There's no point nor reason#I'm trying hard to enjoy life but nothing goes my way#I have so many things I want to do and nothing fucking goes my way#I'm so tired; I just want to go to sleep and not wake up; it's gnawing and clawing and it's such an ugly feeling qwq#I feel like if I cut myself I'd be even more pathetic; I wouldn't even be met with sympathy; just. Disappointment#It's been a while since I last self-harmed in a way that was visible
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Tbh, can't believe I'm cutting ties with Fnaf before Batim.
#em.txt#negative#all thr fnaf stuff that's come outta my rbs since the anniversary have just been queued. my queue is huge it takes a bit#anyways#bendy has given me pounds of grief & a lot of it is my fault for like. falling in love with a proof lf concept#& not waiting for the game to come out in full & rushing in to each chapter looking for hints#to a conclusion i made up in my mind & was never ever coming. the ending to game one is quite trash#& while the sequel tries to make the ending in 1 worthwhile it's too little too late#because while a sequel can recontectualize its prequel it cannot erase how it was when it first was released#yeah so like. i figured between how shit the studio heads were & how I didn't like the first game ot the second game#or really the spinoff which i played i am like the only bendy fan i know that played that thing#& I'm not like. super stoked for any of the 3 games they teased in secrets of the machine#which i think is fine btw secrets of the machine is okay but i refuse to judge it as a game because it's an advertisement#i think some of the secrets in that game like the poster one are stupid but most of it is fine kinda cool. glad they got to reuse#all those assets from previous games & also cameo the car from the mobile game#ANYWAYS i figured all this would pile up to mean i would cut off batim. but I haven't. when the next games come out i will#probably at least check out a playthrough maybe play them myself if they seem interesting#meanwhile. like. the fnaf 10th anniversary happened#they dropped a sequel to help wanted. they dropped 2 more fnaf games. & I don't give a shiiiiittt#i woke up the day after the anniversary & realized like. I don't like the games. I don't give a fuck about the books.#the movie has practical effects & was cute but nothing i will think about deeply. the lore is a industrial sized dumpster fire#I don't like the community i only play ONE fan game & i just don't care about this series that used to eat my brain whole on the daily#so i gave it a month. maybe this was just a depressive spike. but no it seems like something shifted in my brain permanently#I don't like fnaf anymore which sucks#but what sucks more is i still like this other piece of shit that has easily given me worse times
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everything goes so slow for pietro i am 100% convinced he's incredibly terminally online to get his dopamine hits. he's so active on twitter people are worried about him. he keeps getting suspended bcuz he keeps sending people death threats and doxxing them and then has to call tony up so he can pay to get his accound back. he shows up in front of houses of people he beefs with. he fights with teenagers online all day. the official avengers twitter account has him blocked.
#tumblr user ill-say-this-fast (ily) said he'd esp get really into discourse concerning wanda and literally#he searches her name up and inserts himself into any conversation he finds#he's deranged#i said this on twitter circle some time ago but fanfic is real in the comics and so is superhero rpf#what i am trying to say is i am 100% convinced he looks up fanfics of himself jdhfghf#reading scarletsilver fic kicking his feet twirling his hair commenting 'quicksilver would not fucking say that' but bookmarking anyway. et#he keeps dropping social media lingo and wanda never has any clue what he's talking about so she just smiles and nods#she's so nice and thinks of him so highly so mostly she assumes it's words from poetry he's read but actually his brain is just rotted#he gets pissed bcuz a teenager online he was fighting with called him 'old' at least once a day#etc.#luna is social media age now (14 ish) but she's only on instagram where he's not this bad so she isn't confronted with it. luckily#lorna thinks his twitter activities are SO funny though#magneto isn't quite sure how to use a computer (< joking... mostly) so he's not on twitter#but lorna keeps him updated on their daily tea sessions bcuz she thinks it's hilarious. magneto is very tired#ok i need to stop. i just have a lot of thoughts about pietro twitter okay.#we got that one glimpse in damage control where he tagged them to complain about an employee sgzdugdh he's just like that all the time#txt
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